Yesterday was so fun!!!!

I must give a belated internet Happy Birthday greeting to Brad, although I was reminding my friends and family all day.

I went shopping with my mom in the morning so we could look for presents and things of that nature, but we were unfortunately interrupted by my dad who forgot his keys and needed us to come home and open the door so he could have lunch.  So high-maintenance...jeez.

My dad took a nap after lunch and then my mom wrapped presents for a while to get ready for going over to my aunt and uncles. I got ready way too early and then watched Big with Tom Hanks. That movie is so adorable....when everyone finally got ready at 4:20 we went and picked up my grandparents and went to the party.

Man it was so fun. I hung out with my cousins, played pool, played ping pong double tournaments, opened presents-- got a coach bag, and played cranium! That game is really hard...eesh. I mean I knew some of the songs and stuff but a lot of the questions and word scrambles and stuff are really hard. The artistic stuff was fun, but sometimes you had to make stuff out of clay in a time limit, and you have to draw with your eyes closed! It was really hard. But fun because I got to hang out with a lot of my aunts and uncles.

Hehe. I might want to try to find it in a green and blue though...hmmm...

Happy Holidays everyone, may they be as fun as mine have so far.

Oh and Happy Birthday daddy!

PSAT scores were disappointing, although I suppose I can't be too hard on myself because I've only ever taken the PSATs once before in Freshman year. So there's always prep classes to enhance my current suckiness. I mean I got an 1800...how bad is that? Although I was very proud of my 710 writing score. Some people did really well though. Crazy smart people...

I suppose my combined score would be equal to like a 1200...that's not sooo horrible. I guess...yes it is.

Meh.

And I sucked so bad at math. I got like 53. And then verbal I got 56, that's less than last year. so I got like 1090 for the normal SAT. Gurrr. Still more than Tom Cruise in Risky Business....and he got into Princeton, so maybe if I hold a brothel in my house on the same day I have an interview and then allow the interviewer to stay and have some fun, then maybe I'll get into a good college. Maybe. Or of course I could offer the interviewer...services...lol. Kidding seriously. But I want to get in a good college! Looks like I'll have to try to rely on the golf-scholarship thing. Otherwise how else will I get into a good college with a score like that? I'm being to hard on myself. I don't have enough experience with the SATs to feel so negatively about my infinitesimal score. Bleh. I hate school.....I fail at life.

I am so glad it's Friday because I have so much stuff to do!!!!

Shop for Xmas presents...
Celebrate Brad's 41st birthday...
Sleep
Eat
Watch TV
Read Lord of the Rings

But mostly shopping for Xmas Presents.

Oh and HAPPY SATURNALIA!!!!

Hehe, Latin holidays are so cool.

Life is so boring and I'm hating my grades.

Ms. Wall still hasn't updated...

I have a 79.4% in math after getting As on 3 quizzes. The only reason why I have a C in the first place is  I got a C on the annoying test that I didn't finish because it was homeroom, and some other quiz.

I got a 78% on the Bio test, not that I expected anything better. I mean I have no idea what fucking mitosis is...would someone please explain the pointless cell cycle to me? I mean its really starting to piss me off. When we get away from cell organelles I will be super happy. Really the only way I will get an A in that class is if I get an A on the next tests and then get an A+ on the Biolit, although that really isn't that hard.

I hate school. I'm just waiting for my bad test grade to turn up in Software Apps, and the essay for English makes no fucking sense at all. Dude I like Greek Mythology but having to compare one portrayal of the sirens to another honestly has nothing to do with The Odyssey. For God sakes the thing is an AP prompt anyway. Do we look like we're in AP? I don't think so.

I want a boyfriend too. I always see people going through the halls in the process of osculation (hehe...Latin derivative that means kissing), and I feel so lonely. I talked to the girl who sits behind me in English, and she said she'd rather be single. I guess the grass is always greener, but it's not like she'd understand. She dates so much at least she knows how it feels to have someone with you. She can at least compare. Sure I've had boyfriends, but I've never really "dated" per say. I mean, hanging out and playing football or hanging out at school dances isn't really dating. I mean its not like we ever went to the movies or did anything special together. I want a special, romantic relationship. Someone to live for and look nice for. Someone to joke with and love thats different from everyone else. Someone to tell me I'm beautiful who isn't my parents or my close friends. Someone special who's different from me. Who doesn't have to do the nice things but he does. I feel like I would do anything for that one special guy that I could talk to after school. That I could live for, breathe for, fight for. I want to be able to talk about other things other than clothes and the weather. I feel like I have nothing to brag about, and I want that feeling of contentment. The one thing I'd really love in my life is someone to hang on to, someone to support me who doesn't need to, but wants to out of love for me. Sure there's parents and friends, but they have to support you. I'm probably being unrealistic, but all I want is to love a guy and have him love me back. Is that so much to ask? All you guys who are out there, why haven't you found me yet? Am I really that bad? What's wrong with someone who isn't perfect? Who doesn't have the typical high-school personality? (If there is one)...

Although I suppose I also am to blame. It seems I haven't found a guy who's perfect for me either. I know I really have no right to be picky at this stage of desperation, but seriously, I'd like an attractive guy to hang on. Someone with personality, who understands me, who likes the things I likes and who I can hold an intelligent conversation with. I know it's wrong to be picky, but I'm just looking for perfect love and the perfect man...so what's wrong with that? I know I should start looking for Mr. Right and not just pine over how he doesn't seek me, but seriously, I haven't found a potential Mr. Right in any of my classes, so what's the point in looking any further? My parents don't let me do anything or go anywhere by myself so there's no chance of meeting a guy at the mall or walking on the street. I suppose that's why they fence me in, lock my cage. They don't want me to explore the world or explore my sexuality. Is that wise though? If they lock me in, I'll just lash out later. Hmmm...I wonder how much of a whore I'll be in college. Or will I still be a romanticist? Or maybe both. Casual sex, but still wanting that something more. O I'm so confused. The bottom line is, after this tiring rant, I want a GUY.

Lately everythings been all Brad Pitt. I've been watching TV and looking at TV guide channel and suddenly I'll see a movie or a show that he's in. TV guide online helps too...

Exempli gratia: I found out that a Brad Pitt biography was on and so I watched it. That was on Tuesday. It was pretty good, but I knew all the facts anyway. Hehe. Oh and then yesterday I watched a King of the Hill with Brad Pitt in it as Boomhower's (or however you spell it) also mumbling brother Patch! It was all very entertaining as he was forced to also mumble and talk fast so that barely any words were discernable. He's so cute...

To be continued...for I am at school

EDIT:

I SAW OCEAN'S 12!!!!!!!

It was soooooooooooooooooo awesome. It was really funny, and really cute, and he was really really hot. I just finished watching Ocean's Eleven too so now I can compare. Of course Ocean's Eleven was better, but Ocean's Twelve was less sucky than I expected. It definately exceeded my expectations. It was very entertaining, despite its loopy plot. You could tell that they had so much fun doing this movie. Their fun just oozed off the screen and went into you (through osmosis) haha.

All these awesome movies are coming out. I can't wait to see Beyond the Sea that movie about Bobby Darin. What's going to annoy me is that people are suddenly going to think that they know him as a singer because they've seen the movie. Ok I have his CD. Back off posers. I've known about Bobby Darin since all of you were listening to Nsync. Anyways it'll be really awesome, despite Kate Bosworth's involvement. Kevin Spacey is a really good actor, and I'm sure he'll portray his role perfectly. If he can play the serial killer in Seven (with Brad Pitt by the way) he can play Bobby Darin in Beyond the Sea. And in case you were confused about the title, that's one of his songs...

Somewhere...
Beyond the sea...
Somewhere waiting for me...
My lover stands beyond the sands...
And watches the ships...
That go sailing...

If you want to listen to another one of his songs, his most famous one is Mack the Knife, which I have in my song playlist if you want to look for it. It's old-school about a mafia killer. Awesome song. Could it be our boys done....somethin' rash?

Well if our boy's Brad I certainly hope not....

Haha I'm on a Brad tangent-- I can't stop thinking about his godliness. Please forgive my temporary ditzitis. It's only a small disease I assure you. It can be cured...as long as I don't watch Brad movies...but who'd want that?!!!

Happy Nicki Day to me!!!!

I love my pearl earrings mommy.

One step closer to Grace Kelly!

I wish...